nyahaha im sad.every time i tried to lift up the mood.be happy, make it easier for myselfthings will go wrong.its my fault, i know..things look okay, n then not, n then its ok again, n then i said something n then ... n the anxiety attack:heart beating faster, breathing gets harder, chest hurting, head almost explodes.n i wonder if im strong enoughits going to be a long month.i wonder if im gonna